I had been out for years but with the idea that maybe one day I would come back. Then this blog enlightened me. Many things that I thought were true were said with a sense of cause and experience lived by many people who put their comments on the Blog. They were not mere criticisms but they had a reality that I had observed. So the question of why Mike, Guillame Herbert etc had disappeared or become sp was a logical question. And the answers were the motivation to wake up and realize that it was all an implant. I’m absolutely not angry with the staff. I have been staff and I know how you get stoned in the end thinking that you are the right one. An implant where you gradually get ideas, stable data, identities in which you identify yourself.

LoosingMR… Was that question that led you to look up this blog what ultimately led to your leaving?

And yes, you make an excellent point and one that I think many now-exes also asked themselves before they had the courage to leave. If this tech is infallible and the meter “always knows” then how is it that SO MANY top-level execs turned out to be suppressive? Also, didn’t LRH actually say something like if someone is pointing to so many others and claiming they are suppressive, doesn’t that indicate that the very person doing that is most like the actual suppressive? So many contradictions that those who still remain inside the CO$ have to somehow accept and ignore in order to remain and not question.

Aw hugs to you my friend! I’ll be keeping your and your family’s health in my prayers for sure and if there’s any cheering up you need from afar, I’m your huckleberry!

SOOO Sorry to hear both you and your hubby are having a rough go of it, and really hoping things will be ok with your grandnephew – your heart must be heavy w/worry. If there’s anything I can do from here PLEASE let me know, sincerely!!!

Haven is 8 months old today. I’ll get pics for you, as Neliah turned 7 last week, her birthday party this coming weekend will see all of my kiddos, adult & littles, together in one place. I cannot wait!!!

Lots of love for you dear friend! I’ll find a way to get my number to you so if you need anything or even just an ear… xoxo

some of the BEST ever LRH quotes, about buildings and what is really important.

I think you excellent summations will fall on deaf ears.

It is rather like the film “Prophecy” when Christopher Walken ( Arch angel gabriel) is told He” God” is speaking, you just aren’t lisening.

They cannot hear, becuase if they did it would make them wrong. I have found the hardest thing in life is trying to deal with other people’s Ser-Facs.

The only way to deal with those is in the HGC and they really don’t do much auditing any more.

The poison dwarf rat-pig has managed to replace auditing with donating, he is if anything a master of deception.

I have to hand it to him though, if any shit as nasty as him told me what to do (verbal orders) he would get a smack in the face per HCO PL Ethics review.
Oh I forgot, they do not have policy any more.

I rang st Hill last week and asked how much the OEC volumes were and they got very cagey and asked a lot od ridiculous questions.

I got pissed of and asked are they for sale or not?

they are not it seems as they are full of squirrel non LRH dat LOL LOL

What a bunch of losers.

Thank you friend Jen! I know when Mike left he called a friend who WILLINGLY helped him, which was a true Blessing & TRUE Friend! I hope one day before it’s too late, Taryn & Benjamin will reunite with Mike…..hate eats you from the inside outward….I hope their hearts can heal.

I hope all is well with you…you come to mind often & I keep wondering how Haven is doing & how big she’s gotten…& how my “Nelly bell” is doing too. I know you’ve got your hands full chasing after an active family…just wanted to send my love to you. & the children. Kiss the kids for me….the “big ones” & little ones!

Dealing with some health issues for myself & husband…also our Grand Nephew has been very ill for a few months so I haven’t been in touch…so sorry abut that.

A beautiful letter, yes. Cogent, eloquent, and very well written.

Chee I’ve thought about that too. The fact that his elder two have missed out on watching their little brother grow up and meeting their awesome step brother is very sad. My husband and I “started over” so to speak, as he’s younger and hadn’t had children of his own. My older sons are his, as far as he’s concerned and they’re 21 & 24. They were 14 & 17 when our (now 7yo) daughter was born, then we had our son who’s now 4 and… life threw us quite a surprise blessing (@45yo) in our now 7mo daughter. Despite the age difference, they adore their younger siblings and are really close. It’s so awesome to see how much the little ones idolize their older siblings and what a blessing that it’s like “bonus parents” at times and they’re surrounded by love!

I just feel like that presents such a special opportunity to reconnect and even in different ways with ones older children. There have been times I’ve been able to say, “I so wish I had this opportunity with you when you were younger…” and opens up potentially tough or painful subjects/times in a way that reminds our older ones how much we love and cherish them, hear memories we have of them at those ages and hear their perspective on what they remember and experienced.

Ditto to all you said, my friend! Such courage to leave, knowing all it may cost in disconnection. But because Mike and others DID leave, it opens a window for the rest because there IS a loved one outside and thriving who indeed did leave, providing a potentially softer landing for them to be able to consider leaving eventually.

Mike when you return from vacation (hope you’re having an amazing and relaxing time with your beautiful family!) you might co sided writing an updated version of this. I wonder if the more they use Taryn in the false “abuse” narrative, if she figures now she can never leave because of all she’s said and done? Sometimes being reminded of the prodigal son who took and squandered his inheritance, shamed and disrespected his family yet his father welcomed him with open arms and celebrated his return might be a decisive chip in the wall of cognitive dissonance to get through to her heart once more? At “worst” it provides quite a beautiful contrast to the poisonous hate & lies they use her to spread.

I can ONLY imagine how many TIMES the letters from Taryn, Benjamin & Cathy had to be RE WRITTEN before those same letters were “permitted” to be sent to you. How many times did “the big cheese” have to “cross out certain verbiage”….”correct what one of your family members wrote”….BEFORE those letters were approved to be mailed to you.

I can in my mind’s eye SEE those first letters…certain words or sentences crossed out in red ink to be removed from the NEXT letter….or addition words written over the top of words someone actually wrote…to change the letter.

NONE ARE SO BLIND AS THOSE WHO WILL NOT SEE…….as a never in this entire story was a real eye opener to everyone BUT to those who are still drinking “the Kool Aid”…..brainwashed & terrified to say or do anything out of FEAR…..the great INTIMIDATOR.

You’ve LIVED that life….took off the rose colored glasses to see the TRUTH….how or why anyone would want to “stay in” …..well, right back to being brainwashed and having to live that life under the thumb.

When you are permitted to see only ONE side of the coin, that’s your TRUTH. Forbidden for fear of intimation by beating, lock ups, disconnection…what is one to do but OBEY WITHOUT QUESTION. You CANNOT COMPARE the life you are living to anything else because you haven’t been permitted to read, hear or see anything else. Even a “sneak peek” will get you placed in the hole….for months.

All I can say to EVERYONE who has had the COURAGE to LEAVE & start a new life…you are ALL in my book a HERO. Despite all that it cost you…..you found it within yourselves to LEAVE. Sometimes in life if you CANNOT SAVE SOMEONE….SAVE YOURSELF…..& YOU DID!

I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU!

What I hope & pray for is that some day, some way, some how….it will all come crashing down as did the walls of Jericho….& that what was taken from you…shall be returned!

LOVE & RESPECT TO ALL!

Yup. We had a bald baby. I will forever be a fan.