Holy shit.
So there: you are a living confirmation of the strength of the human spirit.
I don’t know about you, but, for me, one of the gifts I received after coming out of my personal hell was a lasting appreciation of simple pleasures…in each present moment.
Glad that you have love and support…and wish you strength and trust in your ability to continue healing.

Yes, I can identify with different things said. That caught me off guard when watching the aftermath show. It didn’t help I was incredibly vulnerable at the time with PTSd & FND at the time. This person rewrote my memories using my flashbacks/amnesia cycle of seizures … and then pushed my seizures to mess up my memory again. At some point my brain was able to track day to day stuff a bit better again and retain more memory … so i resisted the control and damn near died for it. Was held hostage for hours in my house, damn near thrown off a balcony and tossed around the house like a rag doll. I don’t have strength and I’m very disabled — and why did I stay in such a thing … how did I get into such a thing? IDK. It was like that quote, a frog in a pot of water. It’s awful. just horrifically awful. I’m incredibly fortunate now. I have an incredible support team/family/friends. I’m easily gaslighted … easily. Well, person to person. Online is much harder because this is my world and I know the social patterns better here. I’m lucky to be alive. The fresh PTSD is a lifelong buddy though. oi. my heart to all survivors. I used to not believe in evil .. like you hear about in the religious sense. After this past 8 years living some of them unable to communicate – and knowing how people treat you when they think you don’t understand or can’t speak to it — horrific. People you thought you knew well. family even. it’s one hell of a survival eh 😉 Doing my best to respect the people, wish for more to be saved from that horror, and hate the cult system.

Eve, wishing you laughs, relief, strength ,and peace as you emerge from the gaslighting nightmare. Cults are ALL about gaslighting and manipulating, including scientology, so I’m sure you can empathize with the feelings and experiences of ex-cult members. Even after 7 years out of scientology, I am still untwisting the metal and emotional wreckage, though things are much, much better now than when I initially walked away from it.
Cheers!

Alex De Lavera My older brother is in Clearwater. He’s 70 this year and his wife is 83. He’s been in since 1971.

Standarder! Standarderer!! Too much! ?

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Mark I’ve really enjoyed your comments this week! Love how succinct and to the point. No BS! Appreciate the insight you have.

Perfectly said! It’s the ultimate paradox really. It’s impossible.

He’s too selfish to even do that after their sacrifice and loyalty! Isn’t he?

And Bob has COB to thank for all that. That and good old Standarder Tech!