Yeah, I have shitty parents too. I feel your pain, mein friend.

Bless your sweet heart Skyler.

Glenn and Skyler – Thank both of you for sharing your stories.

Thank you Skyler, I understand better now. I struck out at the same age as you. And thankfully, except for my time in the cult I made a fairly good life for myself. One that I enjoy a LOT today too.

Thanks very much for your suggestion Glen. But both my parents died some time ago.

I never felt one twinge of regret for not attempting to reconcile with them. I came to see them both as nothing more than a source of pain in my life. I left home when I was 18 and never returned.

Hey Skyler,

The ONLY thing in this life I shamefully blame myself for was getting HOOKED into the cult. It took a lot of inspection and confronting of facts to free myself in the end. I had to close my ears to all the hyperbole and open my eyes only to facts I could confirm personally. I finally saw the truth and today I am very PROUD for my waking up and walking out. The vampires haven’t sucked another dime out of me since and I am the HAPPIEST I have EVER been now.

Loved the mention of loosing a fight with a tiger”. The cult was indeed like a tiger for many years but once I started taking an honest and sincere look at it all I saw was a little kitty. The truth came out and the personal FREEDOM that this brought to me was so totally, fucking amazing that recalling and telling you this makes me laugh out loud and feel such infinite relief all over again. It’s like reliving the wins all over. 🙂

My mom wasn’t abusive at all. Fact is the reason I was made to disconnect is she once mentioned she didn’t see that I was getting any results with auditing. That’s it! I shamefully obeyed my auditor’s order to disconnect and left my mom for years. Interesting fact is she never disconnected from me though. She was there for me years later when I needed some help. She was an AMAZING woman and I was a STUPID son (back then). But as I said earlier I made amends for it all by caring for her through all her remaining years. She forgave me just as any loving mother would.

Your father’s abuse sounds exactly like what my wife suffered from her mom. She used a belt on her many, many times as a child too. Her mom had many husbands and all were alcoholic. And all their homes were in small isolated villages in eastern Russia. And of course this was back when the USSR was still around so life in general was the shits too. Anyway, my wife and her mother don’t communicate anymore and it seems she has forgiven her. She is a very happy and industrious woman, very beautiful and loving and even now when we chat about her mom she doesn’t exhibit any signs of post traumatic stress. The best and most uptone girl I’ve ever married.

I am sorry to hear you have nightmares about beating your father. Thank you for telling me. I was an orphan for a while before my mom adopted me. Is he still alive and might it be possible to talk? And would you if so? Might help. What do you think?

Hey Glen,

I wouldn’t be too hard on yourself. Even people who know and understand the power of mind control and brainwashing are often powerless to fight it.

You wouldn’t blame yourself for losing a fight with a tiger, would you? I would suggest you feel proud of yourself for taking care of your mother in the final years of her life.

I was never able to bring myself to reconcile with my father. He used to take his belt and strap me with it when I was just 5 or 6. He was raised in an orphanage and I guess he never experienced loving parents. But I never cared about that. I really wanted to kill the bastard for a very long time. I still wake up from nightmares where I am beating him with a tire iron.

It’s not easy to reconcile with parents for one reason or another. I respect you because you were able to do that.