High five to you, Disaffected!

So thanks Mike for this blog and keeping it going. Can’t wait to see what the new year will bring. Obviously more expansion. Eat your heart out little Hitler man, we know you’re watching.

+1

Bubble-time. The end product of marching to DM’s orders in double time.

Hi Cindy,

Thank you for your comment and encouragement.

I just do my share of saving lives. Apart from some hardcore psychopaths who linger here to spy, we are all good, caring beings. If not, we would not ever have engaged in the RCS, taking all the BS for the time we did.

Over the years I have learned to capitalize on the unique knowledge I have of the inner-workings of the org here and this particular field. I made some errors in the beginning by trying to play nice and fair, but that got me the non-enturb order while at the same time failing to rescue a close friend. Now my gloves are off! Haha, anyway, I have been in a position to basically know most of the OL’s, working the in service areas of the org for many years. I know many intimate details of them (and NO, I will never resort to blackmail, that’s a part were my gloves stay on). But I do use certain facts in interacting with them, planting little seeds. If Miscavige only knew just how many, still ins, have serious doubts, he would create more “Holes” to put everyone in!

The org is falling apart and I know they can’t deploy their resources (just a little over 40 staff) too long on invests on me (especially not with all the BS continually emanating from Miscavige). Moreover, the DSA and the HAS are both very young, second generation Scientologists (I helped their parents through bridge steps etc, did handlings on them and I have a very good reputation amongst many terminals in the field AND inside the org). Having said that, I am well aware I’m walking a thin line here, but, I basically don’t care about that. I’ll juggle as long as I can. I do, however, try not to blow my cover just yet.

Lastly, the persons out now, have their own connections and they too learn some of the tricks of the trade. So, in a already decimated field with unusually high demand to NOT do the usual (service public UP the bridge), every person adding to our “special persons”-org bord is really making a difference.

Thanks to you all for being here and inspiring me.

Love,
Disaffected.

Hi Hallie jane,

Thank you for your kindness and your presence at this blog. I play chess on many boards, and the situation with my daughter is rather precarious. Our communication is very limited, and for now, that’s fine with me. She is doing relatively well on her post and I don’t want to disturb things forcefully at this time. I don’t email her (I used to text her, but since they banned free use of all internet connections, I can’t). I communicate with her only by phone, in her libs. And through use of Scio talk and tenets (some stuff is really workable) I find some disagreements and plant seeds of doubt in her mind. I hope they will grow roots soon :D!

Good dissem tech can, and IMO, should be used to disseminate the failures of the RCS (Or de-disseminate RCS Scientology, if you will). I would even argue that, all reaching out to help someone inside the bubble, will be in vain if one discards Scio terminology and its tenets. I’d say use it, pretty workable stuff. Proof? It got US all in right? Also, I won’t avoid TR-L, or any other dirty trick, it’s just the way things are acceptable to persons inside the bubble.

Anyway, I did strive to raise my daughter to be who she has become: a person who cares enough to help others, and of I’m very proud of her. Of course, in retrospect, I sure wish I had chosen some other subject to expose her to. But that’s a story of regret and doesn’t fit in the game I’m playing currently.

But make no mistake; I AM giving it my best shot to have her route out of there. Given the high pressure and tight compression in the SO, time, moves at a rather different pace for us outside than for those at the core of the bubble. So I fully expect the “comm-lag”. Hell, maybe we could even work out a separate time zone for the bubble-inhabitants.

Love (meant as REAL love),

Disaffected.

You are one light in the darkness
You are one flame everlasting
And I fall on my knees and
thank God you were born.

I second Sabine’s comments, except that I don’t want the blog to stop even when the church goes down.This is my 3rd D now. And it is my family now that my own family disconnected from me. It is something I look foward to reading every day. So we can just morph it into the “Good News Blog” after the church goes and we publish our wins on being out, our newfound truths in our studies, our auditing wins in the Indie Scn or our new ideas from other “isms” we may study. And if we are doing well in life, we publish our wins on that so that the world can know that when we leave the Corporate Cof$, we don’t crumble up and die (as they would have you believe)…. on the contrary, we actually flourish and prosper and de-PTS.