I did not make it into the Hitler Youth as I was too old but one of my juniors, Klaus Lohman on the Freewinds was actually in the Hitler Youth in the 40’s.
For me, being a SO member on the ship was probably no better than being in the Hitler Youth. Adolf did not claim to be the most ethical being on the planet and his stats were more accurate than DM’s. I am glad that I no longer have to work for either of them.
I had donated my life to the cause in the 1st couple of years I was in the SO. After that I was the owned property of the organization. When I was sent off to die of AIDS. I was given my power of choice back, though there did not seem to be much life left. Now I feel like I am in another lifetime and it is up.to me to make the most of it.

Auquamarine, I was going to say too, that I should have won an Academy Award… LOL

Wow! This is great, T-Marie. Great data. So this 4.0 I’d get from the staff WAS fake. I suspected it, but…hard to explain, but I also doubted myself. I couldn’t ever decide! They really WERE good at this enthusiasm mock up. Amazing – I wrestled with this question for years. “How can they be so happy?”, I’d wonder. “They slave here all day, they make no money, the place is nearly empty…” Answer: they were acting! Duh! And the proof that it was an act was the rate of staff blow off – very high. Except for a small core of staff that stayed hear after year, the blow off rate was high. But nonetheless, according to them, being on staff was life changing, an incredibly good, enriching experience they were privileged to enjoy, etc. etc. VERY good acting AND/OR I was very dumb and gullible. Probably a mixture of both, LOL 🙂

Computer Guy,

The only people who deserve to feel humiliated and embarrassed are those still in.

They’re asleep, deluded and on a non survival death course.

You’re awake, aware, and on a survival course.

You had the perception, courage and intelligence to leave a ruthless, greedy, conscienceless organization that is hurting people and destroying families.

THEY are still there.

YOU are out.

Don’t be embarrassed: be proud.

Don’t be humiliated, be grateful, and hopeful, full of faith that someday, what you called forth within yourself will be what those Still In will call forth from themselves.

The embarrassment and humiliation is theirs for as long as they remain.

It ceased to be yours when you left.

My 2.

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You are correct you are not the Philip I was thinking of though I do believe I knew you. I was ASHO D then my GO office was in the basement at the manor.

Yes, Cindy, the going on hoping. I remember it so well. Going on hoping. It sustained me for 12 years, until I just couldn’t go on hoping anymore.

Notreally Myname – my advice – talk to the Book Store Officer where you paid and get him/her to send you GOLD. That’s what I did. They will be VERY happy to sell you anything you ask for, because they will get a commission. Take ALL of your money on account and buy as much gold as you can. Use your IAS discount, whatever you can to buy more for less. You do not have to be OT to buy gold OT bracelets. This is the only way to get the most money back for what you paid in, short of getting a full refund (good luck with that!). You might even hang onto the gold until the prices are high. I haven’t looked at that in a while. Prices were pretty high when I did this, some years ago.

Chicken, Lynne and Dena – thank you for your support. 🙂

ClearlyPissedOff – “I think it is going to air on Target 2. If LRH would land his fat ass to set up the antennae.” 😀 I’m rolling!