Hi Jennifer, You go girl! I am cheering( no hip hip hoorays though smile) you are doing great. I love books and I love to write so perhaps you will get back to writing songs or music too.Anytime you want to post anything that you want to share, I’m here.I feel like I know you too and it is so good that we can be ourselves now without always thinking of the world through the lens of Scientology.Love, Ann.

Hi KatherineINCali, Thank you so much for your lovely post.In Sea Org years I did not receive half the kindness I was promised prior to signing that contract.I do try and make up for that now.I will enjoy your posts as well.Love, Ann

“Once I was there “I” started disappearing. I could actually feel my life going away. I realized that this tech was not to be used to improve my life, but to give it up for the “cause”.” What a powerfully true statement, Jennifer. I’m so glad you made it out. I’m so glad that your “I” is returning. And Mike, THANK YOU for this blog because you are saving lives and souls out there, mine included. Good luck to you Jennifer!

Hi there Ann: I feel like I know you. 🙂 When I first found this blog I felt like I just came out of a war zone and your loving posts made me feel like there was hope that I would feel something again that resembled love and compassion. I’m happy to report that it is returning to me now and many good things have come into my path. I am a singer/musician and I hadn’t had interest in it for a few years, which was big since I had done it professionally at one time. I am now in a band again and doing what I love!

Hi KatherineINCali: I get teary just reading the replies to my story! Thank you for your kind words. I was a public for 25 years and was about to join staff. It was when I was sent for training in LA that I found out how much of a sick game this whole thing was. Once I was there “I” started disappearing. I could actually feel my life going away. I realized that this tech was not to be used to improve my life, but to give it up for the “cause”. I didn’t get very far with training before I was completely depressed. I was sent out there on a one way ticket and had to find my way home. It took many weeks. I will never forget it but I’m so glad I could “see” the “not so obvious”. Thank you for your interest. 🙂

Ann,

Thanks for your reply. I’ve read many of your comments here. You are a genuinely kind person. Glad you’re out and living a happy life! That’s the best revenge.

Hi KatherineINCali, Good to meet you. I love reading all posts & since my hubby is a never in of 34 years, sometimes I have to translate for him.Smile. You made a really good point about coming out of the fog of Scientology. A very apt observation, and that fog can come and go for years until one( meaning me) decides to let it go!Love, Ann

Mike, you rock. Seriously.

It’s quite something to see someone like Jennifer credit this blog and its commenters for her courage to leave the cult and find the confidence that was stolen from her. It’s makes me a bit teary to see someone come outta the fog of $cientology and join the real world again. I’m a never-in, but can only imagine the strength it takes to leave CO$ and start a new life while possibly risking harassment, disconnection and threats from the “church”.

Jennifer — I’m so happy for you. May your new life be full of happiness and real freedom.

Hi Jennifer,A great heartfelt post. Mike has helped so many of us,definitely moi too.As one in her getting toward the twilight years, I really like to read what it was like for those after 1980 or so, who escaped. Those that endured dm and escaped.I sometimes need to tell myself dm has been in charge for 30 is it? years now. The ship cos is listing so badly pretty soon she will take on too much water and make her exit. Meanwhile dm will flee in the dark of night…or at least I feel that as of now. With mucho $.
Anyway I look forward to your posts. For me all the years out and I am now 42 years from when I joined Sea Org, all the years out are learning experiences for me. Sometimes I still get little shards of cos that rise to the surface, but that is all worth it because I am Free! Love to you, Ann