Will be thinking of you tomorrow Bill and look forward to seeing you here very soon 🙂

Bruce,
I don’t think details of Mormonism would be interesting to many people here; I’d get a little tired of it quickly, myself, but I’ve seen some stories around the ‘net and TV. Bizarre! But you’ve freed yourself from THOSE shackles. Now for both of us to put our experiences far enough behind us that we don’t bother about them at all; don’t talk about them except in response to specific questions, just let the cults die in peace (or pieces). I’m doing better, not hitting the scn-watcher sites until I’ve had two cups of coffee, and spending more time mocking the flat-Earthers and creationists than on scn matters, even the anti-scn books I’ve downloaded just for curiosity. I get too cranky when I’ve allowed myself to restimulate my scn experiences too strongly and my lovely lady doesn’t deserve that.

Jere, How unfortunate and true, and certainly not religious nor “OT”. Hubbard wasn’t role modeling anything but role modeling how nutty cult bosses can get away with stuff when they lay on the false promises and totalitarian rules and long runway requirements keeping all the members and staffs off balance their whole careers or membership. The nasty clever irreligious cult charade “religion angle” religion founder. His quackery just didn’t cut it, and no matter how much false claiming and false labeling he did, his own “body-thetans” exorcism techniques predictably failed him at the end of his life, as the final pages of “Going Clear….” book reveal.

I think YOU are guilty of stealing MANY hearts were your truth telling & upbeat comments!……YOU are a very nice guy Bill & my family wishes you well. You have GOT to recover…we NEED you here!

(Addition) As Joan was my last auditor on the ship she probably knew about my condition when it got bad and may have even known that my wife had been advised to put me in a hospice to die. That would explain her reaction to seeing me.

The heart doctors have been trying to find out why my heart only pumps 1/4 of the normal amount of blood with each beat. Tests have shown that I have not had any heart attacks and the heart is getting a normal amount of blood, usual causes of heart failure.
When I was very ill with HIV/AIDS I lost 60 lbs in 4 months. Unfortunately, it was all muscle. In my last week on the Freewinds I tightened some water pipes Dow, a routine cycle of action. When I turned on the pump the gasket blew out which had never happened before.
My arms had been weakened from the muscle loss.
The heart is a muscle. Apparently, the heart was greatly weakened by muscle loss. This is typical of severe HIV/AIDS patients. The HIV doctors only noticed this phenomenon when a few AIDS patients happened to get an autopsy. They had just assumed that they died of AIDS. Their hearts had the exact same type of muscle wasting that I have. So the orgs failure to provide me with medical care not only gave me AIDS, it damaged my heart. My arm muscles have recovered but the heart does not build up mass like arm muscles. And with heart failure, you cannot just work the heart harder to make up for the loss. The doctors tried that with other patients and it just makes the heart give out faster.
If any of you happen to be lawyers I have a question.
The statue of limitations is no doubt up on the AIDS thing, but the heart failure did not become apparent until more recently even though the main damage likely happened many years ago.
My question is ” Is the statue of limitations up on the heart issue if I did not know about it?
Like many of you who slaved for decades to clear the planet, it took a long time for me to stop covering for the “church”.

Balletlady:
Thank you for your comment and well-wishes. However, I would prefer that you did not tell RTC that I have a heart of gold days before I have a heart procedure in the hospital. They might try to steal it! (Joke).

(Continued) I made him wrong by surviving and through working under him for 16 years I know that he strenuously objects to being made wrong.

Yes, it probably is sarcasm. After I was sent off the Freewinds in June 02, supposedly for further testing the Captain Freewinds told my then wife that I was going to die and that nobody could stop it. He all but ordered her to end cycle on me. They sent me to a chiropractor for treatment who was not a doctor and by his own statement had never treated anyone with HIV AIDS. The chiro told me that the drugs the doctors would prescribe would kill me faster than AIDS and under no circumstances should I take them. It was clear that they were holding my wife against her will while they waited for me to die. I ended up with dementia and my wife later told me that 6 doctors told her that I was going to die. I was pronounce basically dead by the Captain of the OTVIII ship and his word is law aboard. The ship execs (don’t know exactly who) told her to put me in a hospice to die. Had she followed their orders I would certainly been dead. My Fitness Board originally stated that I was to return to duty ” As soon as possible next lifetime.”
I am sorry if I have offended anyone with my statement. It is a complete miracle that I am alive today. This was all entirely unnecessary. Had I been treated with the proven meds available at the time, I could have even remained on post. There was a determined and continuous activity by the Captain and others which could only have one outcome, my death. This was 18 years ago.