I had finally arrived where the ship execs apparently wanted me. I had Dementia, so it was not necessary to get my permission to kill me. They could not overtly kill me; but they could openly take actions which they knew would result in my death.
All they had to do was to get my wife to sign the papers. And the only reason they had to do that is because they screwed up and let her off the ship after holding her against her will for 6 months.
She ended up taking me to a medical doctor and I recovered.

The Chief Off Freewinds, Bill Bragg told me shortly after I left the ship that I should ” Go to the movies” “Go to Disneyland” and the like “Have a good time”. Hell, if I had been younger he would have sent me to Neverland to see Michael Jackson.
The actual idea was to waste time until death was imminent. They held my wife against her will for 6 months. I saw IJC, Mike Ellis, but it was clear that he was a puppet. My wife had a petetion approved by ED INT Guillerme Leserve who is supposedly the most senior execuitve in COS.
Turned out he was a puppet too. Now no-one has even seen him in 10 years. Same for Heber Jentsch, President of CSI.
Those beings still had some compassion, which is a emotion of downstats and weaklings.
I was ready to die to clear the planet but I would have never killed for it. Therefore, with the new more standard Ethics Tech, I would be eliminated. It would be easy too. No need for guns, knives or blood; just instill a sense of totall loyalty and get the person to kill himself (continued).

I had a cognition on the similarities between forced abortion and actual murder of staff members as practiced by the Church. The motivations are very similar.
The desire to get Dev-T off of their lines and the idea that a baby is “just tissue” is the basic motivation.
Here is the cog: They consider ex-SO members to also be “just tissue”.
When I had dementia in Dec 2002 my then wife called the ship to ask them what she should do. Now, the obvious answer would be to take me to a doctor. They did not tell her this. She was advised to put me in a hospice to die.
Now in a hospice one is just held in a drugged state until one is dead. There is no thought of treating the illness or trying to get the patient to recover.
Actually, that was their attitude toward me from the day I left the ship. They sent me for tests twice but only to document my condition for the Fitness Board Turndown. In their comm to me they never once had me looking for a job or talked about my future. (continued)

As I recall, of the people who did the original OT I, a big problem was a tendency to overrun OT II.

Let’s start by defining things:

1. Original OT I involved 13 steps done off the meter.

2. New OT I is a metered action involving flying ruds on others.

If this incorrect, please respond.

Further, OT II completion is not based on wins or meter read/phenomena. Going down the platens, as long as charge reads, you continue.

Thanks

You are doing great work, please keep it up.

Enigma:

What you wrote: ” … wall of extremely boring text…”

What I interpreted: “…dick all …”

I LOVE this post. Call out all this scientology bullshit when you see it folks.

… or toothbrush and toilet duty.
… or private tears spilled in Sea Org bathroom stalls over a Kafka-esque bleak existence with no sympathy or humanity.

“Children have false data pushed on them constantly at school and are not taught to think but instead are grooved to accept data without inspection.”

Well spoken, but I think you should look in a mirror.

That is the current state of scientology in a nutshell.