I’m sure Cruise has given ALOT …!!!! They probably have gotten close to a billion out of him .

oh, and I have a LOT of great things going on in my life right now. I have tons of great plans and things I’m working on, and lots is happening to help me get away from Scn, further and further.

I count my blessing all the time, and Mike and his gang and you all are close to top of the list!

thanks, honey.

I don’t tell specifics of “my story” or how I got out because of identifying things.

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Not speaking specifics of things in my life has nothing to do with worrying about other people judging me.

Decades of describing every single thing that I’ve ever thought or done, in detail, to auditors…ethics officers…. knowing that dozens of other people have access to my PC folder and read it… having goldenrod on the bulletin board with my “crimes” or “offenses” posted…

Oh jesus… it’s funny, because a scn “ability gained” for grade Zero, “the ability to talk to anyone on any subject” IS an ability I got. Not from Grade zero, but from talking about every innermost thing for decades!

In one of the first Shelton vids I listened to, he was giggling about how he learned early on that he “overshared”. And how in the real world, you don’t just blurt out every single private thing that someone might have asked about. haha! It’s something I’m super “bad” about. I’ll say anything.

Thanks for all of your support.

RIP,

Just so you know- you are NOT a victim. YOU are a survivor! You are stronger than a victim. you took your destiny into your own hands and got out.

Kat

RIP,

I’m not sure if you will get this post, but its important to make it so I am going to try. When you are ready, I will be happy to hear your story with absolutely no judgements made. If Mike and others can get out and have a happy and healthy lives, you can do it as well. Always remember that everyone has a history, and nearly everyone has some dark period in their lives that they try to overcome. I have NO DOUBT you will make it and be successful in anything you wish to do.

You overcame something that few people could have and came out the other side. While you may not yet feel whole and healthy, give it time. Never give up. Always face the future instead of looking at the past (I sound like a greeting card, but you get the idea).

Everyone needs a soft place to land, and hopefully you have found yours here. I wish that there was something more I could do – other than give you words of encouragement- and if you can think of anything you need, let me know. Just remember the wonderful words of A.A. Milne: ‘Always remember. You are braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem and smarter than you think’. This is from Winnie the Pooh- I have it framed on my desk at work. And its always true.

Much respect,

Kat

Recently I was at a social event where I was speaking with a surgeon. I asked him, very seriously, whether he ever thought that his patient was “at fault” for having the illness. I asked him, if he ever thought that person who was suffering from cancer, who had a terrible disease, or was ill and dying…if he ever ever had any thought that they, “pulled it in” “caused it” “deserved it” “must have done something to make it happen” or anything along that line.

He said no.

He did acknowledge that those who smoked may have contributed..and I nodded to that concept…and then described more for him.

I told him of my own health issues/(dread disease) and that of others, and told him of what the cult had done to me, and asked him if he felt anything like that ever for his patients. He was emphatic that it was ludicrous and no, never.

I told that man how the cult had embedded in me a deep and shameful responsibility for everything “wrong” with me. I told him of my own issues, and how EVEN THOUGH I was out of the cult and KNEW that every bit of Hubbard was a BS lie, that it was EMBEDDED so that I felt at fault, I was degraded, I was less than, how .. even while shedding and shedding all of SCN, I couldn’t shake the shame and responsibility and knowledge that it was my own damn fault and that if I had been a better person or more aware…

somehow….

it’s me.

It’s always me..because anything else is the road to being a victim and the victim never wins. Victim by definition doesn’t win. So there is nothing but responsible for own condition.

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I’m glad that in the real world it’s not my fault.

But I look forward to the day I can actually feel it.

…….

(I also, quite often, ask people, “is this a REAL WORD?” “do people say this?”… and I recently learned that saying that such and such, “introverted me” was incorrect. being “introverted into something” or “about something, from something” isn’t the way people speak. I looked it up…. another made-up usage) blech!

Still

Learning

…!

……….so..just a bit more for you here, Kat, …your understanding and easy mind on how others may have been sucked in is nice to hear and is probably is a peaceful type frame of mind to have, quite good for one.

You know, I really don’t give a flying Eff for what anyone might think of me .. whether they may blame me for getting in, think that I’m dumb or … just any random critical blaming thought.

Oh boy, but that doesn’t come anywhere near me.

EXPERIENCING ..being in for decades, getting out… it’s been …difficult in ways beyond measure. I’ve not made a secret here on the boards of my struggles. It was days…then weeks..then months, and now I can count even more, but ever fearful to give too much specifics… 🙂 … and I’m still hanging in there, REAL highs, and REAL lows.. but keeping on.

In this last week I’ve made a jump, and suddenly have been feeling a new kind of lucky. Lucky to be out. It’s hard to describe.. but… there was shock, numbness…then falling deep…then moving a bit away… then..lately..rising above? There is getting enough distance..- I was listening to some new Shelton and Levin today and suddenly felt really LUCKY. The new Shelton was great, and it helped …it showed me how far I’ve come.

I’m so lucky to be out. I might just…Make it! 😉 🙂 🙂 🙂

None of the nasties bother me. I’ve my own demons in just getting out and letting go. Who cares what the uninformed think!

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I LOVE being out. I LOVE talking to never ins, and learning more about how to just.. be a regular person. I’m ALWAYS watching and listening…. just to see how people are. I’m practicing lots of things all the time.

<3

PickAnotherID,
Can you get more of these? I may be able to find a really good use for them…
Kat

They should be made aware who they may really be potentially advertising for:

NCM HEADQUARTERS
6300 South Syracuse Way
Suite 300
Centennial, CO 80111
customerservice@ncm.com
https://www.ncm.com/contact-us

NCM Serves most the US market including Regal Entertainment Group (United Artists, Edwards, Regal Cinemas) which is owned by UK based Cineworld. As well as AMC, Cinemark, and Carmike, and their respective subsidiaries not under contract with Screenvision Media

Screenvision Media (only has 5 locations using their ad network in the city of LA

Janice Myers
VP of Regional Sales
4745 W. 136th Street
Suite A
Leawood, KS 66224
913.717.0259
jmyers@screenvision.com

Scott Johnson
VP of Sales, West Region
429 Santa Monica Blvd
Suite 340
Santa Monica, CA 90401
310.395.7849
scjohnson@screenvision.com

I would also recommend contacting the exhibitors customer relations departments if those ads start showing up on their the lobby plasmas, rear screens, or during preshows. 50K may sound like a lot , but putting it in lobbies and accross all screens/ratings in the Los Angeles DMA won’t have the ads running very long at all Unless they target a handful of locations nearest to Scientology properties.the it may stretch their ad dollars more and they can have something to show thier local
members and donors.

Last i was aware of it, NCM also controls the contract for physical lobby advertising as well. This includes things such as one sheet posters, hand-outs, rack cards, table displays ,standees, window clings, even printing on bags and cups.This would be far cheaper and perhaps a more effective route as far as the number of movie goers who would actually see it.

As a “never in”, I wonder how a person who has been “IN” since birth, early childhood or who “signed up as a young adult”….& then GOT OUT would also need or want to “ask many questions” about how things work on the OUTSIDE OF COS.

After all, if you’ve been so deeply ingrained in COS, & were KEPT from how things really work or what the TRUITH is outside “the bubble” you’d have many many many questions to ask as well….& might need or ask ONE OF US….to give you some tips and advice on how to go about your new daily life on the outside.

Your OWN comment “there are so many new things… just the idea that it’s OK to admire a tree.. to love the earth, … I have no short way of describing it… hence, my remark about explain and explain” says A LOT….even YOU might need US to “explain explain explain”….HOW THINGS WORK ON THE OUTSIDE…and WE are happy to help you in any way we can.

Enjoy yourself, breathe in the fresh air, inhale the FREEDOM you now have to be what you want to be. Yes, it will take hard work, & you will find many new WILLING friends who were NEVER IN but who will be happy to answer any questions your have & help GUIDE you along your way.

BEST WISHES!

There are many former “ins” who have opened their hearts & souls to all who comment on Mike AND Tony’s blog. Yes I admit it must get somewhat tiresome to repeat things to many different people…BUT in you OWN way…YOU my friend are passing along important information & details.