Cameron, powerful response, I kind of remember you when the Woodruff flap we at down on L Ron Hubbard Way. I completely agree with you because I had my own issues when 8 was a not so smart teenager in the Sea Org ini the mid 70’s. Happy to hear you respond. you are welcome anytime in my camp.

Dear Cameron,

Thank you so much for your heartfelt and brave response.

I am sure many, many well-meaning souls who have found themselves implicated in any number of unsavoury even illegal and inexcusable situations thorough their involvement in this twisted system which offers well-meaning people the chance to save the world as part of ‘The Most Ethical People on the Planet’, and then leaves them poorer and holding the bag for child-molesters, hebephiles, con-men, human traffickers, fraudsters, homophobes and yes, even murderers, will recognize themselves in your comments here…

Thank you especially for your refusal to place yourself above reproach or excuse your actions (though we all know haw this particular mind-fuck works, don’t we?) There are far too many people around here who seem to believe they were one of the ‘good ones’ and there fore excused, as if their intentions mean more than their acts over days, months, years, decades of this nonsense.

Stopping any chain of abuse begins by saying “Enough! This stops with me; I will not participate any more, not will I remain silent and allow it to be practiced around me!”

Until you clean up your own house you cannot hope to set a hideous structure like Scientology to rights. And you certainly cannot do it whilst carving out a little ‘White Room’ for you and yours and whatever soap-box effigy you’ve built of L Ron Hubbard out of his lies and your dreams, either. David Miscavige goes to sleep every night on high-thread count sheets made of your foolishness whilst children are separated from their parents, husbands from wives, and pregnant women are forced to sleep in parking structures on dirty mattresses with no sheets. People are kept in ‘The Hole’ while Tom Cruise receives Extra-Meritorious Humanitarian Awards for blowing his mouth off on Oprah and making you all look like morons. Tommy Davis is laughing at you from behind his mother’s skirts as you cry for your lost relatives due tot he disconnection policy he assures the world doesn’t exist. And whilst some, even on these very boards find nothing better to do than invent cockamamie excuses for why such-and-such a shore story a bout some dreamed-up medal on LRH’s chest really isn’t so far fetched after all, and really could have happened… and on and on and on…

The CoS is not some noble artifact with a few bad apples on top and a huge, crushing majority of belaboured saints at the bottom. Yes, blackmail, attempted brain-washing and arm-twisting, morals-destroying, hard-sales persuasion is used to ruthlessly keep the ‘faithful’ in lone, but at some point, if you are reading, thinking human being you have to know. And if you are not, why did you cease to become a complete human being, NO one can do that to you– You have to take that decision yourself. And once you do, you are complicit.

If everyone coming out showed your courage and moral fibre, Cameron, the scam would be over now and the healing could begin.

MIscavige isn’t doing this alone; He needed a lot of assistants to carry on Hubbard’s twisted work. And he’s never ahd too much trouble finding them, covering up tings for The Greater Good, writing KRs an spouses for the Greatest number fo bla-bla-bla, selling their children into Sea-Org slavery for a break from the regges…

Break the machine, Throw yourselves on the levers. Stop covering up child rape, fraud, blackmail, human trafficking, abuse of the legal system, exploitation of US Health services because the COS doesn’t want to touch the billions (yes!) it is sitting on, MIscavige’s violence to his staff and imprisonment of his wife..The Hole, etc…

HE CANNOT DO IT WITHOUT YOU!

So give yourselves a big pat on the back, or preferably a big kick in the ass to get it out the door.

TODAY.

Thank you, Cameron. What a sad story for you and all SO who come in with pure hearts wanting to help and then get the spin dry treatment and no auditing. The “I’m not auditing you” Sec Checks are not auditing. I hope telling your experiences lifted a weight off of you. Keep shedding light and telling the truth. It helps. My wish for you is peace and a great life from her on out. You deserve it!

Thanks Cindy. I asked for the benefit of the readership and your suggested advice…

“” I think you should expose the perp’s name so that people can watch out for him.”

I happen to agree with that advice.

Mike Reppen,

BasketballJane is my wife.

I’ve never commented openly here before, but I feel compelled to answer your question because, like you, I was there. And this particular aspect of the Sea Org was the real reason I left. It was over a decade ago, but yes, it happened.

A lot of horrible stuff happened. I’m not entirely clean of any of it either. The fact that I didn’t turn on the church back when I was witnessing it makes me an accessory, and I have no real sane excuses for not speaking up. Just insane ones.

I had recently stepped into an executive position in the CLO WUS at the time, and was handed a pile of crap that was the Cadet Org and had to deal with some pretty shocking out-ethics situations there. The conditions those kids had to live in wasn’t anything I’d want for my children or anyone else’s, and I made it my mission to get it handled.

Doug didn’t seem the type to you, but my old friend Yasha didn’t seem the type to me either. There isn’t a type actually. There are individuals with their decisions and actions. Decisions and actions need consequences.

As the deputy commanding officer, I learned really quick that our tendency as Scientologists to throw people into buckets was doing ourselves a huge dis-service and really was just a mechanism to categorize someone so you “knew” what you could expect from them.

This type of thinking is lazy and faulty. For example, I know “Democrats” who proudly own guns and “Republicans” who think Fox News is totally full of crap.

Labels really just breed indoctrinated behavior and serve their creators. Get labeled a “Suppressive” and see who keeps talking to you. The indoctrinated don’t. They don’t even ask you about it. They already “know” what to expect from you and how to react, no matter what the real story is. That particular label is serving DM less and less these days because it’s having less and less consequence. The number of indoctrinated people “disconnecting” is rapidly dwindling and as a result, DM is losing his grip on everyone’s balls.

Afraid of speaking out about the COS? DM’s got your balls. Usually in the form of a family member who you don’t want to “get in trouble” by saying something. Brilliant way to control Scientologists but he’s fucking it up. I’m proof.

SO many things back then in 2000 were “off-policy”, “out-ethics”, “counter-intentioned”, and my favorite “not what LRH would do”. A lot of us were overwhelmed with the task of fixing it all.

I think I lasted about 6 months or more on that post, and I left the Sea Org.

Routing out was 4 months of security checks, FPRD and a super secret process called the truth rundown. A brilliant mind fucking procedure that RPFers are subjected to. Bruce Hines gives a great explaination here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fjbt9gVFIX8

An RPF graduate took my position, Rebecca Christensen. Lisa Hamilton, (now out of the bubble) had me sign a stack of documents under duress of not being able to leave, saying I’d never speak ill of the church or bla bla bla. I was handed a few bucks and shown the door. When people asked me why I left, I lied to keep me and my family safe.

It’s taken several years for me to leave the bubble and move on. Even when you’re out mentally, it’s even longer till you start talking to others. Then there’s the fear of getting your family who’s still doing Scientology into “trouble”. You wan’t them to allow them to keep doing Scientology and not get them pulled into Ethics, so you keep your mouth shut. Feel DM holding your balls?

But I digress.

Out of everything I experienced in that iron bubble, the harboring and covering up of HER incident was the one I struggled with the most. She was a very dear friend of mine, and still is today. We are in touch. She is doing very well.

“The Group is all and the Individual is nothing” mentality was VERY heavily indoctrinated.
We all thought that way, and we were all monsters for thinking it.

The indoctrination is heavy, and by definition, it’s expected that you don’t question it.

We were the only hope for the entire fucking universe. We all really believed it too.
All these mest universe “problems” were just dogs yapping at the fire engine.
They were not going to stop our mission. Screw the victim, save the groups reputation.

She was blamed for it. She had “seduced him” and the whole thing was “handled” within the Sea Org so it wouldn’t be a PR Flap. The whole thing was handled at “OSA Level” but despite this, anyone who knew how it was being handled and didn’t do something about it, was wrong. Including myself.

The effort that goes into shielding the actions of criminals in the Sea Org in the name of the “greater good” is insane.

And when it comes to rape of a minor, I couldn’t believe it happened. Seems fantastic right?

It’s not.

What’s fantastic is that he wasn’t escorted to the police. Instead, he was given “Scientology Justice” and an “ethics program”. It’s insane that the “most ethical group on the planet” with the purpose of getting “ethics in on the planet and the universe” harbors sex offenders and shields them from the justice system.

Even hardened criminals in jail have a higher standard when it comes to sex offenders. They have a special welcome for them when they arrive in jail. They openly beat the living crap out of them.

Our society, rightfully labels them for life and puts them on a list for the public to easily look up.

You won’t find Doug on facebook lately or even find a picture of him on the internet anywhere. He had a facebook account last year, but He’s since gone dark.

But from his youtube account, you can see what channels he’s subscribing to:
http://www.youtube.com/user/Dougcahuenga
I suspect that will disappear shortly.

Anyway, I’ve confirmed it’s true I hope. I couldn’t keep quiet about it.

One last thing Mr. Reppen,

Thank you for all your hard work for so many years helping the SO staff with your work in the Universe Corps. A lot of us stayed the course in the SO so many years because we genuinely wanted to help people. Like a lot of us, I never had any auditing in my 12.5 years in the SO, just a bunch of sec checks. But I really liked what you were doing for the staff.

Thank you.

You already know his name, Coop. I told you previously in a private email when you asked me. I guess you want it public, so you asked again on the blog. It was an OT named Fred Nelson and you can research and see his arrest record on it. He hadn’t molested the girl (yet) and was caught and dealt with before it got that far, thanks to the undercover sting operation. Does that sufficiently answer your question for the second time?

His master taught him well…

Yes,in Scientology the only real crime is running out of cash.