Thank you for sharing your story. It has many similarities to mine. I am sorry for the loss of your mother -especially before you could reconnect with her. Devastating what this cult does to people and families. Mine left the SO and later died of cancer as well, and while we did get to reunite, the cancer cut our time short.

To: David Miscavige COB RTC
From: His Ruin
Re: He doesn’t have the fucking rank

Declaring me would mean acknowledging my existence.;)

ML? A girl can dream
Future Mrs. Mickiewicz

To: Jere Lull
From: Alcoboy
Re: recent comm particle to an ecclesiastical dwarf.

That’s telling him, Jere! The little man in charge refuses to admit that all the problems in Scientology can be traced to his doorstep. Keep it coming, brother!

chuck beatty
x team xenu 75 to 03 (mainly in the cult bureaucracy depts making staff Scientologists who learned to blame each other for Scientology’s quackery failures, and never blame Hubbard which was disallowed)

Jere;

I’m just saying that: enforced “truth” (churchs’ indoctrination), to many that “cry wolf” on bigotry, etc, is still “technically” a truth. As I mentioned, those of us that were in – are quite aware of how difficult it is to “see things from other perspectives” or to “realize other truths exist” – I definitely struggled with that myself.

I was being empathetic to them, for I know what it’s like to have your faith, truths, belief attacked, and how I would reply if I were in the same mindset / faith.

I know I’m using an “alias” name – so that I guess, could perhaps lean you to think i’m still in, which I’m not – but simultaneously, I have family that are – and I already had a heartbreaking disconnection, and I don’t think that I could go through doing that again with those that are in, hence, using an alias.

I, have experienced the pain of disconnection:

My first disconnection, was with my mother, who was an Int staff – that blew. I was indoctrinated to disconnect, which was around 98/99 (don’t recall exactly when, may have been 2001-2002 somewhere too).

In 2019, I said to myself, “F that”, and started looking for her. I found her, in 2020, she was literally living about 30 min from where I live the past few years. However, I was never able to meet her, or talk to her.

When I found her, in June of 2020 – She was in a hospital, due to cancer (and June 2020, if you recall, was when we were in “covid lockdown”). However, On June 16th, my mom died….

I’m not too keen on repeating this, losing someone I care about, and never being able to see them, or find out things too late.

While I am also – utterly and completely *not* responsible for your “assumption” or “conclusions”, if you do find I wrote something that may not make sense, there could be a reason – *some habits, and some things* can be difficult to change, I would be more grateful for more constructive comments. I’d rather you point out what it is that was written that seems odd to you – than for you to simply conclude, or assume.

I am still learning, and I do welcome anything that would help me along that path.

sinjiansmythe: As I reread yours to TRY to glean some sense out of it, my impulse is to bid you crawl back under your rock — or into your OSA senior’s office.

Burning “Fleecewinds” to the *ground* would have to be done QUICKLY — while the poor dear is still in dry dock. After she’s been refloated, if that’s ever possible, the best you could do is burn her to the waterline. Not that I recommend that: It’d be an environmental disaster with all that blue asbestos flying around.

To:David Miscavige COB RTC
Re: who’s getting cancelled.

Being declared – by you – is a joke. YOU are the true SP, the most “successful” in scn’s 72-tear history. I can’t think of ANYthing you haven’t squirreled since you took the “reigns” from Ron’s cold, dead hands. And you are the real “why”, the *WHO* explaining why scientology has no presence in today’s World. partnering with NOI? REALLY!? That’s a real match made in a heavenly Ham shoppe.

“It is a good day to ask where Shelly Miscavige might be. Was she abducted by Xenu? We suspect that David Miscavige, Tom Cruise, and the upper echelon of @Scientology could answer that.”

Admittedly I have few followers and you have to dig deep to find my blog where I posted a longer version of the above. Matt Belloni deservedly gets more attention. But with all the time on their hands in their almost empty buildings, I might at least hope that someone would remind me that Shelly is living a great life.

Maybe the nod to Xenu scared them off. But I am going to have to do better.