Thank you sir.
My courage probably stems from my fear of letting others down. The cycle was far harder on my wife than myself. It is not hard to die, it is staying alive against all odds which was hard.I had to live for her sake. Without her I would have been dead.Yet some people on the ship were doing everything they could to ensure that I would never see her again. It was a. close call. At one point she was afraid to go to the store because she thought I would be dead when she got back.She asked me for some prediction on when I would die. I told her it would be over in 3 weeks. And although I was still alive 3 weeks later, I no longer recognized her as I had dememtia. Regarding my manners I have seen some real assholes in my day. My father was an alcoholic and routinely tore the family to shreds. So whatever I did in life, I was determined not to be like that.
I still would like to talk to you about the ship and the vampire personality Sharron Weber my 1st wife if you can spare a few minutes. Again my phone number is 214 756 0988. It would really make my day (actually probably my year)

As far as my engine room expertise is concerned, I had none when I got there. I had never worked on a ship and had never worked on anything larger than car engines. All I could do was read what I could find and train myself. There is an LRH Flag Order where he says ” I am not going to buy ” Can’t, don’t know, haven’t been hatted. You can and you do know and any other statement is pretense. So I am just not buying it any more”. I liked this about the SO. I don’t know how I pulled off some some of the cycles I had to do. Actually, I have a pretty good idea but I won’t get into that here.

Mistakes have their merit, too. Wilbur never would have flown without about 1000 mistakes that led into the ground. We need a better word for Mother Nature’s way, for pain?
Pain is Nature’s way of telling you something’s wrong,
…liking that yes from the song.

Clearly yay fine, clearly so.

Kemist, If I must have any Conditions I take your list.❤️❤️

Thank you Bill.I put aside The Code Of Honor and amended it to suit me.Praise,approval and sympathy I searched for years to find in Sea Org and beyond.Alot of it becomes narcissistic but a little goes along way.Just my thought…❤️

You would not believe how much I can screw up on blogs too.A learning curve is what I am on and I do have to laugh at myself at times.Bypassed Charge,Yup I sure know about that.Still enjoy your story and comments.?

You are a good man Bill Straass. I appreciate both your amazing courage and your exemplary manners.

Thank you, Ann for your comment. Although the Code of Honor says “Never need praise, approval or sympathy it is still good to know when my writing is well received.

Thank you for the correction, sir. I realized that I still have charge on these subjects and just as some people in talking raise their voice, I did the same by using caps. And yes, in rereading it it even annoyed me. Who the hell am I to drown out others comments by using caps? Other people may have charge too and my comments are no more important than theirs.