This is a good story to begin the new postings on this blog.
Though long, this write up by Jason is worth reading because it illustrates with specifics and detail a lot of what is wrong with the RCS (Radical Corporate Scientology). His experiences — and he would serve perfectly as the “typical staff member” — demonstrate all of the following. Disdain for the well being of the individual. Insane stat pushing. Mistreatment of children. An utter inability to think or apply reason to even the most mundane task, but instead substituting the “winning valence” (mad orders and “cover your ass” actions). Insane regging and efforts to sell “the Basics.” Treating staff like slaves. And a culture of violence accompanied by idol worship of Miscavige (Jason’s bathroom sign incident is the perfect microcosm of “COB”). And you just know that everything is not only true, it is probably understated. What a waste of a dedicated, willing and hard working staff member. Mike
My name is Jason Barclay and below is my Sea Org story. It is more important to focus on what can be done now or just simply remain modern day philosophers. I’m letting this story go out into the world because it’s very therapeutic to finally send it out there. Also, I hope current Sea Org members come across it, as it may wake them up.
All feedback is appreciated.
The current SO members, at least in the CLO, are miserable. With high stress and few days off they are living the lives of slaves. They are very tough people and ‘can put up with it all’ but are in need of help themselves. Any way you can put ethics in on the Church seems to be the only way you can help them.
***Random Tidbits and Experiences***
Keep the following bits of data in mind when you read the SO STORY.
*Before I joined the Sea Org I had a small degree of Candida. Candida is a yeast that normally lives in the body peacefully. But when you eat the American diet (Sugars, processed foods, trans fats etc) this yeast becomes a HULK. Ultimately it destroys your immune system, makes it hard to go to sleep, prevents you from sleeping well… etc but can eventually become it’s own cause of death if untreated. Naturally I mysteriously began to get constantly sick in the SO and had obvious visible signs of Candida. The one medical liaison person on the base for 1,000 SO members had no idea what I had. So I’d continue living my life of no sleep, eating the exact things that fueled the thing, being around harmful chemicals and epoxy paints… After being in the Sea Org for 1.5 years my heart started to ‘feel funny’ at times. Again, the person on the base didn’t know what the cause was so asked me to report if anything more happened. If I didn’t leave the Sea Org on that fate changing night I would have died.
*My mom was on the level during this time and since LRH said ‘calmag helps’, she was ordered to take too much of it every day. She had no time to exercise but her health was of no concern to the Church, only how she would be able to borrow and earn money to stay on the level. Over time she also started having some ‘heart trouble’ that I didn’t know about. She gained about 40lbs in 3 years while ‘on the level’. She had taken so much Cal Mag that her body stopped strengthening her bones. As a result bruises would last for weeks. She’s certain that if she hadn’t left the church, she would have died. Also please understand that people ‘on the level’ were not allowed to see chiropractors since that was obviously ‘Another Practice’, just like ‘seeing doctors’. Thank god she left or we would both no longer be around.
*There was no real medical coverage. Just one person on post and if she didn’t know the handling for whatever you might have then you’d just get sent to a room full of sick people (ISO) that would never be filled with vitamins and get well gear. It was assumed people here were ‘Ser-Facing(just trying to make others wrong)’ and shouldn’t receive any ‘extra attention’ or funds. That’s also why my candida had grown so out of control. The one person over health didn’t know why I had visible candida symptoms and I would just get yelled at every other week when I got a little sick (candida kills your immune system- bad idea when you work in bathrooms all day).
*If your stats were not up it was only because you were ‘off policy’ and would get yelled at constantly and told ‘YOU DON’T WORK FOR LRH’. If your stats were up but your area still had some trouble, well, then you still ‘didn’t work for LRH’ and would get yelled at. You’d get ‘used’ to a weekly slew of insults and angry comments and no actual leadership from above. I believe the leadership is better hearted in African diamond mine areas. The few nice Seniors are far outweighed by the dominating loud mouths and entheta.
*Within the Sea Org, if you desperately needed an item (which was any item you needed for your post) and happened to see it, you are usually desperate enough to take it without knowing who it belonged to or how to get it back to them. If you leave your laundry in the laundromat for two full days it is unlikely you will get everything back, especially when you leave any ‘common items’. If you leave equipment, dollies or generally useful items not locked up and accessible you can expect it to go missing within the hour.
*The tools and belongings of other people, especially the engineers, were always getting ripped off by random people, especially the RPF who were heavily pushed to do an amazing amount of work every day and often without the tools they needed for the job.
*Near the end of my first year I half joked and asked my senior if I could have a LOA. He had just had a LOA himself and only laughed in response, like I was crazy.
*In the first 1.5 years working there I spent $1,500 out of my own pocket on lights and paint. I would get killed if a light bulb went out whether or not there was money for them. So I’d constantly have to go out of pocket to try and keep from getting nailed and possibly to try and earn those precious days off (Since lights also affected my stat). I also knew that if a light bulb was out but my stats were up I would not be able to take a day off. This usually required me to spend $50-$100 out of my own pocket to handle this when I thought I could get a day off despite the nine reasons I could still get rejected above. One Christmas my dad sent me $300 and I had to spend all of it on lights. Whenever I’d tell people I was donating lights to my Org I would only hear ‘That’s stupid!’ – But then I’d just keep getting killed if any lights went out.
*I slept in a room with 18 other people and few of us were on the same schedule. It usually smelled bad, with 2 regular farters and 5 regular snorers. The guy right below me snored like a Harley and if you didn’t climb into bed like a NINJA he would get pissed and punch the bottom of your bed really hard. One guy, like the movie dumb and dumber, loves to make use of his three blankets and would keep the window wide open even during winter. I found out that 16 of the 18 people in the room hated the room being -50° at night. But since he would open the window after we’d all go to sleep we sort of felt stuck living in freezing temperatures, so he could enjoy his three blankets.
*I’ve seen a few IAS reg cycles where the reg extracted the full amount of saved infrastructure funds the company needed for maintenance and expansion (Around $200,000 each time). Life savings and things like that were ‘better spent’ on the churches needs.
*I’ve seen many heart breaking SO reg cycles where married couples were ruthlessly torn apart because one or the other ‘wasn’t qualified for the SO’.
*There weren’t many ‘Direct’ KR’s, usually KRs written in CLO were CC’d to 10-20 other people – who would often demand answers and even conditions assigned before the full data, or even your response, was available.
**** MY SEA ORG STORY***
I was 13 years old at Flag while my mom was trying to stay on the level. This was around 1998.
Some recruiters asked me to help save the world and I said ok, as long as I got to see my family (in California) once a year for 3 weeks. I was told I would be on a ‘lineup’ to eventually become a Super Power auditor. My mom and sister went shopping for me, buying me matching pillows and stuff so I would feel more at home there. They gave it to me before the shuttle picked me up to take me to my berthing for the first time. After my mom left I randomly blurted out that I missed her and the other SO members there laughed at me. I was later told I would have to throw out the pillow covers blankets and sheets by my EPF I/C since they were not “matching”.
When I joined I was told I’d have a guardian who would be there like a buddy for me. I never saw him again.
I also had my entire collection of ‘Magic The Gathering’ cards I had gotten from all previous birthdays etc. (About 1,000 cards) These were all taken from me, behind my back, when I graduated the EPF and moved into a new room. My mom wasn’t able to stay on the level and I felt responsible.
I was told I’d be able to go to school while in the S.O. but I only went to one day of school at a Delphi where we were taught Psychology ‘speed reading’ tech where you could ‘guess’ the definitions of words based on the paragraphs before. I asked the teachers why they were teaching that and that was my last day of school for the next 6 months. They didn’t seem to care if any of the SO kids were really learning. I wondered why I no longer had to go to school because I thought that was a government requirement for my age.
I would get up each day and be at the 9:30am muster. I’d study Scientology data for 5 hours a day and get back home at 10pm after work. Every day for the first 4 months I was verbally abused twice a day by the then EPF IC ‘David Engleheart’.
I would have to do hard manual labor like moving bags of cement around. Sometimes it was gruesome, sometimes it was ok. I loved working in the rain but realized later that was messed up that ‘the rain’ was no excuse for getting a little less of a ‘product’ that day. On my last day in the EPF I was physically abused by the EPF IC who was mad I didn’t have a uniform belt yet. He grabbed me by the hips and shook me around a bit asking where my belt was. I simply replied that the uniform IC said it would still be a week or two.
A few times I worked till about 1AM in the morning and left once I ‘felt done’ and crying only because my team IC forgot to tell me we were done for the day.
When it came time for my LOA they would only give me 2 weeks off.
So I called my mom and had her withdraw her permission for me to be in the SO.
****12 years later****
I was the Second in command of a 26 man Scientologist film group. I was the cinematographer, director, lighting, sound, editor, marketer, producer and main investor. Unfortunately the head guy was an SP. We had been ‘producing’ for two years. About once a week the head guy would slap me on the back of the head only when I was trying to work on editing and wondering why his ripped version of Adobe was ‘acting funny’. He was an SP and I didn’t have that tech. During this entire time I had no help from the church since I was a ‘freeloader’ from when I was in the SO at 13 years old. I needed help but didn’t have much money because I was investing everything into the show. I was making about 3k a month as an Extra and about $1500 a month as a professional editor for three shows.
One member of our cast was Weston Dugganstar, son of George Duggan who was a multimillionaire scientologist. Weston had full access to the bridge but still wouldn’t want to set foot in the church. Instead Weston was living for no rent in one of our rooms and racked up a $500 bill with me for rarely paying for my car mileage or house utilities.
Soon I became able to pay my freeloader debt so I could continue my bridge. I finished all of my ‘lower conditions’ for leaving the SO when I was a minor. I even paid my freeloader debt. I also had $1600 ready to pay for my purif – but I was stopped and still labeled as a ‘freeloader’. But still I could not get my status lifted and be allowed to continue up the bridge for the next 3 months. Instead, the MAA at CC recommended that I used my purif funds to buy half a Basics set as that would “help my chances of upgrading my status”.
Then they came to recruit me again (Feb 2010). The recruiters promised I would have good berthing, $50 dollars a week, free medical, 3 weeks off a year, every other Sunday off and would be promoted to Golden Era Productions Right away. They knew I had about $4000 of debt and said we’d be able to “handle that later” – but we never did.
I told them I wouldn’t join unless the make/break point of Scientology was at risk. They said it was, so I joined. That was it and none of the recruiters promises came true.
(This is what I looked like when ‘in a good mood’)
When I routed onto the EPF I had a Blackberry Tour phone which was taken ‘because you can’t have phones on the EPF’. The recruiters made me terminate my sprint contract which ADDED a $300 debt in my name. I later learned this phone was given to my seniors senior and basically stolen from me by Sea Org officers. Unless it was pure coincidence my senior’s senior got a new blackberry tour phone two weeks later? Hey that was ‘the greatest good’ right? The EPF was tough but at least it was “sane”.
Me and my best friend (and model EPFer) graduated in the same week. He was going to be the new CO LA Org Estates and I would be his junior. He didn’t last a week and I was ‘promoted’.
I quickly learned that the AC units in LA Org were turned on during the renos ‘so the new wood could acclimate’- This only FILLED the AC vents with construction dust and fiberglass that still remain to this day as a health risk to all who enter. Most ideal Orgs are done the same way.
Unfortunately along most of the hallways there was a design to put high trim along the ceiling and in sections so it could freely expand and contract with different temperatures. Near the beginning of this they looked up and realized they had the sections mismatched. Instead of correcting the error right away they decided to fill all expansion joints through the entire building instead so they would “look the same”. As a result, most of those expansion joints continue to bulge their fillers and paint by 1 cm every three months. $10mil was spent on those renovations and didn’t cover those high trim pieces somehow so our RPF had to do it and was of the few things ‘the Church’ handled on that renovation. $100K was spent on painting but the walls were coated with a ‘washable’ flat sheen, which later had to be completely redone after excecs tried to yell me into making flat paint work for a commercial building. And boy did they try.
On average LA Org was making around $30,000 a week combined and I would usually only see $300 out of that to go towards all maintenance and sanitary items required to keep the 60,000 Sqr ft building serviceable to the public. This more often than not required money to come out of my own pocket in order to meet the high demands of the executives over the Org as gone over below (Mostly spent on lights and paint).
Also during the renovations about 10 parking spaces were taken out of the total space count to allow for more trees. LA Org was usually empty but about twice a week that parking lot would get full since it serviced all buildings in the area. Any cars left overnight would automatically get towed before daybreak. Staff or even Sea Org who parked their cars in that lot, even in the daytime, were usually at risk of their cars getting towed.
(There was a later incident when my mom went to flag and she left me her car so I could go places on my days off. I called security and told them I was parking it in a specific spot in the parking structure. The guard recommended I got a card. Two days later it was towed. He did not tell me that if I did not get a card then it would be towed. My mom got back from flag two weeks later. We went to the parking structure where I had left it. It was around midnight. We found out then that it had been towed. The security guard that showed up did nothing to help, he only continued to try and make me wrong for not having got the card as my mom freaked out about the out security of having her OT seven materials and no way to get home. We ended up calling a taxi and she was later charged about $500 for the tow. No apologies were made by the church and I was asked to “handle my mom’s ARC break”.)
I started with two “staff” to take care of the new $10,000,000 Model Ideal Org of earth (LA Org). One staff had just previously been homeless and was a ‘wide-open-case’, he would believe ANYTHING anyone said with wide eyed enthusiasm, before he would fall asleep in utility closets throughout the org.
The other staff member had a decent heart but was a previous drug (meth) dealer with a shaved head, tons of tattoos and did more damage as the ‘Maintenance Officer’ than he repaired. You would expect to see him at a rave and not as a clergy member by a long shot. Oh and with one slight catch, I actually had NO control over their actions since I was merged into LA Org from CLO. So instead I became the handy janitor as they ran happy errands for the Org.
I received ZERO training or apprenticing for my post on how to professionally take care of ALL cleaning and maintenance actions of my org to 5 star hotel standards. I did, however, take a cleaning course which recommended cleaning products from the 60’s. Any training I did receive was on the ‘feel of it all’ or the ‘essence a CO Building should have’.
If an executive was upset that 1 in 12 BR’s was dirty at any time in the day my seniors would only shout my head off and tell me how bad I was doing. They would never try to find the WHY and hat and correct as needed. The criminal level of my only staff (THAT I HAD NO CONTROL OVER) never seemed to be a factor. A regular thing my seniors senior would shout was “YOU DON’T WORK FOR LRH! I DO!”. That’s like a priest shouting to another, “You don’t work for god! I do!”. It is funny to look back on it now.
The only regular policy applied from above to me was “HCOPL ETHICS PRESENCE” and the condition assignment of Liability/Treason.
I was on my own to learn how to hold the post, with my two “staff” doing more harm than good.
The homeless guy ended up throwing out $1,000 worth of microfiber rags in his first week and the drug dealer set fire to the CPU of one of our treadmills. Thank god he rarely actually worked. He later became a folder admin of all things but held that post well, strolling down the hallways with tats and all.
It was ‘known’ that I had 2 juniors and I wasn’t ‘keeping the org up to standards’. But since I was CLO I was not their actual senior and had no say on their actions either. The CLO into LA Org board had never been figured out and I was left as the glorified target for upset church executives. There were a few times I almost changed my post title to “Glorified Target For Angry Execs”, just out of spite.
7 months later I finally gained an awesome staff member, his name was Alfred. Even though I had no direct control over him he would listen to my pleas of common sense and how to better take care of the Org. The Org was spotless at this time. People started flowing into the Org. I stopped getting yelled at. The income of LA Org started to skyrocket. I closed him and his wife to join the Sea Org. I knew that with him I could change the face of LA Org and start making progress on the real outpoints I had noticed. But he was ripped off and told he would be the FSM IC Day and Fdn on STAFF. The income of LA Org promptly crashed to its normal range. It must have been assumed, “Alfred on post makes stat go up, lets put him on a GI post!” He and his wife were told they would be the FSM IC and deputy respectively. As Day AND Fdn staff members their finances were immediately crippled since they were not able to moonlight like the rest did. After 1 week of this, and still without receiving their post title, they decided to have a kid and left for good. The income stayed crashed. The Org wasn’t as kept up as it was before and I started to get yelled at again since I was “obviously off policy” with my own crashing stats.
My stats were SQRPCS (Square Paces) which was another way of saying square yards of perfect space. If there was one handprint on a hallway wall, which was 300SQRPCS, with three people present and doing “Touch that wall” drills – it would get flunked. A few spaces would get flunked because “The arrangement of books doesn’t match the opening picture from 7 months ago”. I would be up 6 hours past my secure time trying to “get my stat up”. It took me 1 year to get the guard to tell me WHY spaces were getting flunked. Naturally this all led to a roller coaster – so I must be PTS and shouldn’t get actual handlings.
I got to have libs about 6 days a year and in spurts. There were 10 reasons I couldn’t have libs even though my stats would be up on my libs week as follows:
1. Your stats aren’t up enough
2. Your stats aren’t in a high enough range
3. Your stats are roller-coastering (And no handlings then done)
4. You were recently sick
5. All is not well in your building
6. There is an event the day before, which you will have to be at for 5 hours, and that would be too much time off your post.
7. I forgot to pass your CSW on, sorry…
8. It isn’t your libs week, oops it was, sorry…
9. You ‘upgraded’ out of liability before the libs CSW deadline but didn’t turn in your new Normal Condition to me (Even though my post stats and post condition was in affluence)
10. You didn’t make your ‘Golden Age of Tech’ WQSB quota. (Sales on Basics – I never wanted to figure out how you do that while cleaning toilets as I felt that would be awkward for the public), so it would come out of my pocket.
I learned that in the PAC Base there was no such thing as doing Evaluations. The orgs were empty and we were constantly operating on “orders from management to increase bodies in the shop”. This was in the form of the yelling chain of command and if someone was not “getting bodies in the shop” they would get yelled at because they were ‘obviously off policy’, crammed in random policies, demoted or transferred. At no point was anyone really allowed to take a look at the scene, look for out tech and off policy actions that could be repelling the public away. Harassing our public with phone calls, mail, unrealistic reg cycles, unfocused bridge actions, prioritized IAS donations and fighting over them between different orgs able to deliver the same service- never seemed to be even remote causes and suggesting them were treasonous. (Most of these fights were between ASHO and LA Org. Since ASHO also delivered grades, the basics courses, introductory courses and a slew of other auditing services in addition to the SHSBC) I knew early on that the empty orgs was a neon sign of off policy and out tech actions. It didn’t seem we had much of a chance of improving but I believed that if I just held on “someone else” would be able to untangle this mess.
It almost seemed a weekly occurrence that a public allowed to finally do OT preps at ASHO was smashed back down to redo their purif because it was found they had administered it outside the church.
After six months of that Estates life it was finally time that I was going to get promoted. I was finally going to go to Gold and two more SO members were going to be added to LA Org Estates so I could escape the hellhole I was stuck in. I started FPRD. Each session would start with “I’m not auditing you” and after covering the ruds he would then say “now for your FPRD”. During this time, I suddenly found out about a very gross time of my past but was glad I would be able to audit it out. At times my auditor would be looking at the meter very impressed and I would say, “I’m getting a lot of TA huh?” He would nod in response. I felt physically lighter after each session but was also always at a loss since no havingness processes were done to make up the sheer amount of TA I had gone through. An old “overt” from a long time ago (this life) turned up, it was an out 2D action that almost happened (very serious compared to my virgin lifestyle). This was enough to cancel my promotion. I was told that the two people that were going to replace me were still going to LA Org, so I would at least finally have personnel under me. Unfortunately, these two men were ripped off by my own command channel and sent to other areas within PAC BASE CREW. Instead I would continue to be yelled at for ‘not applying policy’ and ‘simply keeping my org perfect’. At the same time my FPRD stopped and I was left in the middle of it. I would stay ‘in the middle of it’ for the next six months and not even be allowed to do OW write-ups or do the purif, since I was “in the middle of a major action”.
To say I was crushed would be an understatement since going to GOLD was the whole reason I joined.
***THE CALL CENTER***
To top this off, the next day my senior’s senior, Rebecca Christenson, began to hit me across the back of the head every day when I went to the Golden Age of Knowledge recovery WQSB. This continued for 6 months straight. It was known I was stuck in a major action and she knew that action restimulated me. As if it wasn’t enough that she ripped my juniors away from me. Going to the WQSB was a hell in itself. In theory our job was to call ex-Scientologists or people who fell off the lines, get them to talk about what went wrong and convince them to talk to the next person on the line. Unfortunately you were so pressed to make your quota of transfers that if someone yelled at you or said they were sick of your ‘cult’ you would assume it must have been your bad handling and would leave no phone notes so hopefully the next guy could have better luck. As a result you would mostly call people that have been getting harassed, threatening legal, on the do not call list or simply shocked that the last 15 people who ‘said they would help them get off the list’ were lying. In reality, your job was first to get the person to admit they were them by trying to sound like a casual friend (e.g. Hey Chris, how are you?). Then you would hope they could give up their ARC break so you could then hot potato them over to the ‘material consultant’. I would frequently get a hold of people that just moved or just got a new cell phone number JUST TO GET AWAY FROM THE CHURCH’S CALLS AND MAIL. I felt bad when I got them to admit their identity knowing they would continue to get calls and mail possibly until the end of time. My own twin sister fell into that category and started receiving mail a week after she moved to her new place.
I would only get hit by Rebecca while I was sitting at my desk, and while trying to produce, and would always be out of the blue for maximal impact. Even if I was making my quota I’d still get hit across the back of the head in ‘enthusiasm’. I couldn’t believe she had been knowingly restimulating me all that time. I only found that out on the last day when she said, “I know this restimulates you but what you did ‘wasn’t ok’ ”.
On average we’d contact about 10,000 people a week. Of those we’d get maybe 100 to buy basics packages. Of those 50% would either send them back or simply didn’t do them. The other 9,900 were aggrieved and felt harassed so we could reach those 100 basics sales.
So you see you are calling a body of harassed and then venomously upset people. The only “nice” people you would call were ones that already had what you’re calling about and were current Scientologists usually disgruntled by our lack of admin. Lucky for them we’d start aking them about the next events instead!
The thing that shook me the most about that experience in the call center is that none of the other 40 Sea Org members present ever said anything or lifted a single finger in regards to my abuse.
I felt bad for all of the material consultants because if they were not regularly getting basics packages from this broken and hostile list of ex-Scientologists then their chances of ever having days off were zero.
The ‘execs’ declared that if you weren’t making a sale every week then you were off policy, not following the patter and should be further punished. If you were one of the poor souls who actually sold a package once a month then you would not be allowed to take libs at all on any week you didn’t sell a complete basics package $3,500 a piece (regardless of your post stats).
***Continuing SO Story***
After those six months of hell in the call center (while being stuck in the middle of my whole track FPRD and getting hit each day at the WQSB with execs completely baffled why I couldn’t handle that Org on my own) a major “incident” almost happened. I was out on an award watching “The Adjustment Bureau” someone came for me in the theatre saying that there was an incident in my Org. I was told rags that I had brought down to the basement had caught fire. I knew it was right next to 20,000 PC folders and was crushed beyond belief thinking I have blocked the bridge of 20,000 PCs.
Two weeks before this my senior ordered the grounds officer to have the EPF unit take self flammable oil to maintain the front planters of LA Org with. Neither he nor the grounds officer told the EPF or me that this oil can catch itself on fire. Instead they expected you to know the “flammable” label on top meant “will catch itself on fire if let sit in the open on a bunch of rags”. The EPF unit left a gallon of this oil with a bunch of clumped rags on top that were doused in this oil within the first floor cleaning closet. I was ordered to take that item from that closet down to the basement…
Two weeks later… It wasn’t until I got back to the base that I was told they had only started to smolder. I was considered to be the only one at fault for those rags smoldering in the basement and was assigned Treason. Over the next month I had to do 50 hours of amends and could only use my mealtimes and sleep time. I also had to contribute $200 more out of my pocket towards the Org as part of “Liability”. I was demoted to the LA Org cleaning IC regardless but had all of the same functions, responsibilities and still had to go out of pocket for weekly lightbulbs. Being stuck in the middle of FPRD was considered a main cause for my “destructive behavior” and I was allowed to resume and finish my FPRD! How nice! But of course now that I was receiving auditing I was not allowed to take days off haha.
A few months later the local Sea Org Security I&R who had been inspecting my stats was demoted and placed as the CO LA Org Estates. He was still in the middle of doing his lower conditions for having engaged in an out 2d action on the base. Luckily, LA Org started setting aside more money for sanitary and maintenance but this new guy, Trevor, began buying expensive cleaning items instead of much-needed maintenance items. He was in the middle of his own Sec check and did not feel ready for this post. He would do maybe four maintenance actions a week. And I would continue holding all cleaning actions and would do 5 to 6 maintenance actions a week. But my seniors loved him since he knew how to talk and demand that I “work more”. He started to go nuts when he realized that it was not possible for me to “work more”. He was also promised we would be getting two more personnel to our estates that we could, for the first time, have the required amount of personnel to do the job. After four months going by with that proving to be a false promise he blew. I much wanted my old post back but was told I was “not qualified”. Of course I would still have to continue holding the exact same functions as my first day in that building.
Two months later a new kid, demoted from the Freewinds, was posted above me. I still had to hold the same functions while he took four weeks to “groove in”. He promised he would help with the cleaning load since he knew that was the majority of the work but this lasted only for one day. And boy was that one of my best days there! After that he did spend a half-hour a day sweeping hallways and stairwells but not the three hours a day he had agreed to. He would do some maintenance but spent the most of his time creating ‘new plans’ for the Org. One ‘new idea’ was to clean the org and he passed that ‘plan’ to me to ‘implement’. His idea for me was to ‘forget about the past’ and start anew. I could not simply forgive and forget the above and thought him a shitty leader for suggesting this.
Then, one day I looked at my inbox and noticed I was demoted AGAIN to the nighttime cleaner. I was told we would gain a new personnel within a few weeks who was currently in the CAT B EPF (For previous Sea Org members that had really messed up and needed extra “handling”) – and she would become the LA Org Cleaning IC – MY SENIOR. I was devastated that after everything I had gone through, everything I had done and kept my production at a level that no senior could even approach, I had been demoted with no ethics hearing, committee of evidence or even “a memo”, so much for being ‘Permanent Status’. To me this was an ultimate statement of how little they had to think of me. To not even let me know I was being demoted?
My mom, Chris Barclay, was on OT seven and said she did not want to stay on the level and would not go back to Flag. I granted her beingness and simply talked about the importance of the bridge for the fate of this planet and the universe. A flag rep from CLO then called her asking her to go to flag, she then agreed. She came back from flag asking for a refund. I was shocked and wondered what mis-handlings had taken place. I told her if she did something LRH said was bad then I would have to disconnect and asked her to withdraw her request for a refund. She did. She told me she couldn’t say anything but that I should read the HCOB “the no-interference zone”. LRH very clearly said that OT’s cannot be interfered with. In there, he mentions that if an OT is moving slowly then there is roughly 9 tools that can be employed to get them moving again. I knew that at Flag EVERY OT Seven had to automatically do a six-month check and had to automatically do only one of these nine tools arbitrarily (which was the ‘confessionals’). I suddenly realized the extreme degree of out tech not only in my own Orgs but at Flag itself. I quickly called flag and even sent a Telex to David Miscavige asking for answers. After a week of no straight answers I called my mom to pick me up at 1:30 in the morning.
I left very cloak and dagger like and did not sign any contracts to be silent about what I saw.
The church logged onto Facebook and told my friends I was a suppressive person and should not socialize with me. Friends I knew for my whole life walked away without listening to anything I had to say.
One friend, who hasn’t done a course in years, said I shouldn’t just complain about the Church and actually do something about it and until then wouldn’t be able to talk to me… (and that was in response to receiving this story).
I quickly found how hard it was to make friends at the age of 28 when you have no money, few real world skillz and a whomping case of Candida.
I also had a hard time trying to get a college Pell grant since the church never filed my taxes, even though they told me they did.
***Data on Ideal Org Building Outpoints***
(I am only including data that I knew were a direct result of our own out admin and mis-management. This is also only the data I knew about.)
LA Org (The “Model” Ideal Org of Earth):
- Major roof leak! Anything more than a drizzle would cause a stream of water to drip through the fourth floor ceiling in 3-6 spots. Every time this happened I had better be there within an hour of it starting to downpour or I would get NAILED. It was my building so it was MY responsibility. My lack of training or funds to handle it was besides the point entirely.
- The Film room doors were given cheaper doors which allowed the sound float into the courserooms.
- Nothing special was done for the auditing room walls or HVAC- as result PCs in those rooms could hear nearby PCs.
- There was only one working sump-pump for both pit areas. Since neither one had a backup we were taking a seriously stinky risk. If one had gone, it would have overflowed, with septic sewage smells permeating through the org and local neighborhood for weeks.
- The High Trim expansion joints were filled in and resulting in hundreds of hours and dev-t of me and outside hired professionals trying to maintain the many bulges.
- Only HALF on the toilets and urinals were given sensors. As a result the public would assume they all had sensors and would not often flush. This cased a lot of urine build up as you can imagine. Even when making it to each bathroom every 4 hours.
- There was NO safe way provided for me to change the Dianetics reception lights. It was about 30’ high and I would have to grab a 25’ A frame ladder which had a broken foot that was sort of taped together with another piece of metal.
- The building started with FLAT PAINT. The original painters were paid hundreds of thousands of dollars for this overt product. All of the walls had to be redone, that task led by me, and of course without thanks.
- HVAC filled with fiberglass from renovations, estimate to clean was over $1,000,000
- HVAC ducts not redone so AC efficiency was seriously questionable. LA Org had to pay about $3000 a month for AC – yet many of the areas were uncomfortably warm and unusable.
- Every ideal Org had a testing center to help flow body traffic in except for LA Org. It was ironic that LA Org had to show how all the flow lines worked when it couldn’t show the very first one. A large test Center has been owned for more than 10 years but has never been renovated. Instead LA Org has been made to pay $13,000 a month to rent the shitty temporary test Center on Hollywood way. Maybe 10% of the ceiling tiles were in good order. The rug was damaged in most places from water stains and any time it rained you would see a labyrinth of plastic coming from the ceiling in order to funnel the many different leaks. The front gate was unusable but the poor staff would be seen morning and night spending 10 minutes screeching the thing open and shut. One of the receptionists, who was out there half the time, did not usually have dress shoes and instead had sneakers on, even with the new LA Org uniform. IN this way LA Org has had to spend $1.5 million, over the last 10 years, black PRing the name of Scientology on one of the busiest streets in the world. I saw it was recently shut and am very glad. That thing was such a DB piss hole that also drained a lot of time from the LA Org Estates.
- Due to lack of Estates personnel and staff cleaning you would occasionally see cockroaches in the Ground floor areas (Under the first floor).
- The Div 6 Public Folders rolling shelves got a face lift but the actual track and wheels were not repaired, as a result signs like “DO NOT MOVE THIS SHELF, IT CRACKS THE FLOOR” would be posted.
- During the LA Org opening the signs on the Mens and Womens BR doors were switched so DM could have a bigger restroom. The signs were left like that by the crew who switched it for me to figure out how to fix.
- Flat paint was still used on these walls even though I had proven how stupid that was ONLY because they were operating off of old plans. Hundreds of Sea Org man-hours and hundreds of thousands of dollars were spent and not a single person spoke up before the opening. It is already known that this Org was only going to have two SO members to maintain it, even though it was two separate buildings. It was not maintainable and did not have enough staff to maintain it. The resulting lack of activity cost the Inglewood Org 70% of its staff members.
- Their HVAC was also contaminated due to turning on the AC then there was still a lot of construction and remodeling going. Renting exterior AC units did not seem to be an option.
- There were only 2 SO posted to take care of it when it was known they needed at least 4.
- The floor tiles were never sealed during rennos and the new Estates personnel did not know how to do it. As a result they usually looked FILTHY and soaked up a ton of the staffs time.
- There were too few ‘walk on mats’ in the Org and as a result much of the dirt and filth would be free to flow into the org.
- Flat paint was used again ‘because they were operating off old plans’.
- There were several carpet stains during opening. The warranty on the carpets demand that no water extraction is done for six months. The estates manager will not be able to hot water extract those stains out, he will have to do some other bullshit process and get killed for his lack of product. By the time he is allowed to use the right process the stain will already have been long one with the carpet itself.
- Only 1 SO personnel was assigned even thought it was known it was a job for 4.
- There were no ‘walk on mats’ in the Org and as a result much of the dirt and filth would be free to flow into the org.
- Flat paint was used again ‘because they were operating off old plans’.
- There were too few ‘walk on mats’ in the Org and as a result much of the dirt and filth would be free to flow into the org.
The yelling chain of command prevents Sea Org members from being allowed to even find out what the out tech and off policy actions are for themselves and thus KSW.
If you know someone still in the church you have to remember that everything you say sounds completely insane. The only thing you can do is point LRH policy in the following way:
1. Establish the tough idea that they can think for themselves by asking them what they should do if they noticed an off policy or out tech action in their own Org. Per KSW should they “wait it out” or do something about it? (Without this established they will happily sit through a holocaust)
2. Have them read the reference on what empty orgs mean in relation to off policy and out tech.
3. Have them read HCOB “The no-interference zone” and point out that it was revised one year after LRH’s death but still forbids OT sevens from being interfered with. Tell them how all OT sevens at flag are given six-month checks and made to do confessionals across the board.
4. Ask them to contact flag and try to get a straight answer. Get them to specify the exact policy by LRH that counters it. Prep them by saying either we apply the HCOB’s or we don’t.
5. Let them take time to try to get an answer.
6. At this point they will be fed up with the church, realizing how much out tech there actually is for themselves. All of the outpoints they had been ignoring will then start to surface. All of the injustice actions they faced themselves are suddenly unforgivable. All the times they were made to buy BASICS or donate for their relatively small overts now seem like extortion, which they were.
If you intend to hold up signs and banners outside orgs, you should keep the above in mind. Here are some suggestions for signs that would work and get across. Remember that for every sign you have nearby that in any way seems critical, rumormongering, entheta or out PR in any way will make the rest appear likewise:
1. Get back in eval tech! No more acting blindly.
2. Read the HCOB “the no interference zone” – please KSW
3. KSW (That was most impacting to me as a SO member by far)
4. LRH says empty Orgs are a sign of out tech and off policy, what are you doing about it?
5. Don’t ignore the out points, KSW.
Thank you very much for reading this novel, I hope this helps lay some insight to the current Scientology scene and make it easier to get ethics in.
After being yelled at and told how shitty of a person I was for 2.5 years, I had a very low opinion of myself even once back in the real world. It took me months to bring myself up to the point to go back to college and learn some real life skills – like website programming.
Finally now I am making websites for myself and businesses, working to complete my book (which I hope will be the next Harry Potter ), studying Political Science and IR at college, going to $800 wealth building seminars (with amazing money making data), and getting back into Film Making for businesses and indie groups.
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